The girl, now no longer a young girl, wondered.....
.......is it possible to feel safe after being beat on? Or do you forever wonder if you say, or do, the wrong thing you may be beaten again?
......after being sexually abused can you ever trust that it won't happen again?
........after being abandoned will you worry every minute for the rest of your life that at any moment you will be abandoned again?
........after being hungry and malnourished do you forever have a love/hate relationship with food?
........once your trust is betrayed can you ever trust again?
........once rejected by those who are supposed to love you can you ever feel that you are worthy of ANYONE'S love?
.......when you lose a child does the emptiness and pain ever stop?
.......once you hear the words that make you feel you are worthless will they ever stop echoing in your head?
.......when your child calls someone else momma does your heart ever stop breaking? Or does it ache until the day you die?
........in heaven, can you look into your children's eyes and without saying a word convey to them how you had loved them since before they were even born and that you didn't ever want to be without them and you think of them every single day and think of all of the "could have beens"?
Does the hurt girl child ever leave that place in time and become a whole woman?
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